Sleep Paralysis

[Pheebs]

I suffer from this every so often and had a spate of it last night. Does anyone else suffer from this?

It's really horrible and although there's a pattern to it, it still manages to freak me out every time.

I will be "wide awake", with my eyes wide wide open (they feel the size of plates) but my breathing will be really really shallow... almost not enough to survive. I am completely and entirely paralysed. I can't even move a millimeter. I'm normally on my back and after a minute of realising I'm shafted... I will start to hear thuds coming from the landing. Then.. from no where... a lady will appear in the door way. She's always facing away from me, wearing a big white gown of sorts but it's torn and dripping with blacky red blood. Her hair is tangled and arms contorted behind her head with her legs bent inwards... it's almost as if she has broken arms.

Then... she'll start to move. It's a weird moving. A bit jaggered like and blurry. The only time I have seen movement like it was when watching the House on the Haunted Hill film - when you see people moving through the video footage. It will be heavy but quick movements and each step is a thud noise. She will then suddenly appear at the end of the bed... and waver a bit still facing away from me and moving erratically... and then appear right next to me. I can't see her properly by this point as I can't move or turn my head... but she will loom over me, this time facing me, head down and hair stuck to hair face but shadowing it enough to not make out any features... and then... her face will suddenly be an inch or two away from mine, bright green eyes, almost glowing, terrified eyes.... I can even feel her breath on my face... and "hear" her scream (it's a weird noise... I can't describe it). After this, it's all over. I wake up, sit bolt right up, covered in sweat and try and move all parts of my body to make sure none or it stays in "paralysis" mode.

All the flipping time it is happening though I am desperately fighting to move or twitch or scream. I will take in a "deep" breath in to force a scream out and it ends up being the quietest of noises you can summon from the back of your nose. Every time I panic. I know that just one word out of my mouth or a slight movement from me will wake me up and it will be over... but 90% of the time I'm just stuck.

I don't get scared of dreams... In fact... I love them generally... but these ones are just terrifying.

*shudders*

*am knackered from a disruptive nights sleep*